Funny&Scary

Just a couple of days ago, another funny story happened to me. Long time ago when I was 12 or 13 I saw ghosts once, and I got so scared that I ran away. I was so scared that I ran for five minutes or maybe longer, before I turned around to check if they were behind me or not. After I turned around I saw nothing. Pretty much the same story happened to me a couple of days ago. It happened after midnight, when I went outside of my house for a smoke. The weather was very good. It was warm and quiet. The sky was full of stars, and I saw a full moon. I looked at my neighbors’ house, and noticed something that I didn’t see before. On the roof of the house there was a small, creepy humanlike creature with huge head, short, but very thick legs, and thin hands. This time I decided to try to control myself, at least not to run like crazy. I can’t say that I am I coward, but it is hard to describe how scared I was. I heard how my heart was beating, so fast and hard! Then I noticed that I was shivering. For about a minute, I kept staring at that creature and I saw it moving! I saw how it made couple steps towards me then I saw it turning around. For a couple more minutes, I kept staring at it and I noticed it moving. I was just about to freak out, but I made myself to stay and wait for it to disappear (like in books or movies). I couldn’t wait any longer. Staring at that creature, slow but steady, I got closer. (I think that I looked so crazy that if people saw me, they would call a mad house). When I finally got close enough, I saw that “creature” and I was surprised, mad, and ashamed at the same time! The creature with huge head, short, but very thick legs, and thin hands, was my neighbors’ satellite antenna. When I finally understood that, I started to laugh so loud that the neighbors turned the light on. I don’t know how the antenna could move. Probably that was my riotous imagination again.

It took me quite a long time to decide if I should post this blog or not and I finally post it.

Sometimes I get bothered with some philosophical questions, which probably do not have the answer. That is probably the reason why those questions bother me- because there is no answer!
One of those questions is what do I live for. I am just about to turn 20, and about a couple of days ago I thought about that. I remember my childhood like it happened just a second ago (or maybe I am still a big child…) and I am already 20! It scares and surprises me so much! 20 years seems to be a long time, but I didn’t notice how it went through… Sometimes it is hard to wait for 15 or 20 minutes, how come I didn’t notice 20 years went through? 20! I keep thinking if I spent those years right or wrong. I’ve been thinking about what I have done, or achieved for a long time and nothing comes to my mind… nothing good… am I that bad? I hope that I’m not… but then why don’t I remember any good deeds?
I wonder how I will thinkabout tis question later when I’m 60 or 70. Will I think the same or different?
It’s sad that I can not predict the future….